'All
is quiet on New Year's Day
A
world in white gets underway
I
want to be with you
Be
with you night and day
Nothing
changes on New Year's Day'
(U2)
A
quiet, calm, frigid morning. My town bathed in sunlight, covered in snow. A
world in white. A blank canvas. So many possibilities.
A
new day. A new year. A new start.
But
has anything really changed? Does anything really change on the first day of
the year?
The
news headlines all look the same. The names and places sometimes change, but
the stories all seem to be the same. Violence, corruption, greed, injustice,
disease, poverty...the 'haves' lording their power over the
'have-nots'...everyone convinced that their way of viewing the world is
'right'...'people talking without speaking, people hearing without listening'
(according to Mr. Simon). Even as I write these words, I feel like I've
written or spoken them so may times before.
Nothing
changes.
Although
I'm a year older, deep down inside, I still feel mostly the same. I struggle
with the same fears, doubts, insecurities, uncertainties, listlessness,
restlessness. I shed the same tears, laugh at the same jokes, return to the
same old stories, remember the same old glories. I suffer from the same wounds
and long for the same healing that never seems to come. For all the experiences
and insights that seem to come to me and even flow through me over the years, I
sense that my mind, my heart, my spirit, my life most resemble the proverbial
broken record, stuck in the same groove, repeating the same phrase infinitely,
the groove slowly becoming a rut.
Even
the snow that covers the rooftops and treetops is all made of the same stuff
that's simply recycled over and over and over again.
The same stuff that I'm
made of. And you.
Truly,
as the Teacher once wrote, 'there is nothing new under the sun.'
Nothing
changes.
And
yet...those snowflakes that are comprised of the same old stuff nonetheless are
reformed in different, unique, new shapes, each one unlike any other that had
come before or any other that are yet to come.
Same
with me. And you.
We
live in a world that is a living, breathing creation...constantly evolving,
shifting, morphing into new shapes, patterns, designs, always reforming and
transforming...a creation that continues to create and recreate itself. A world
where each moment brings new visions, new realities, new possibilities.
And
for all the ways that our world society and my individual reality are seemingly
stuck in the same old broken patterns, grinding away in the same old groove on
the broken record, there are glimpses of new creation, new hope, new life
around us and even within us every moment of every day...circumstances that
awaken us to a stark, yet engaging new reality, a new way of seeing, hearing,
thinking, feeling that jars us out of that old rut and empowers us to live in a
new way. Out of that same old stuff, new creation is emerging, new hope is
shining, new life is happening, even when we don't recognize it or realize it.
Or at least the possibility for it to happen is there, waiting for us to engage
it.
In
the light of real Love, each new moment is a chance to begin again...to
recognize the same old stuff, the same old patterns, the same old issues and
wounds and longings, and to see in them the new stuff of new creation, the
seeds of new possibility buried within the husks of old hurt and despair...the
seeds that can only take root and grow into those new possibilities when they
die and fall into new soil.
The same old stuff hangs on tightly out of
fear, doubt, insecurity, uncertainty, listlessness, restlessness. But
when we are willing to run the risk of letting go of the same old
stuff, facing the fears that we cling onto because they are familiar and seemingly
'safe', we open ourselves to new possibilities of hope, love and life growing
up from deep within us and out of us into our same old lives and our same old
world in ways that embody a new way of being and living. A new creation.
Everything
changes.
Same old story.
Same new year.
But as for the last words of this first blog on the first day of the year, I'll
leave those to T.S. Eliot...
For
last year's words belong to last year's language
And
next year's words await another voice.
And to make an end is to make a beginning.
And to make an end is to make a beginning.
(1 January 2011)
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