'be
still, and know that i am God.' (ps. 46.10)
it's one of my
favourite statements in all of literature. a call to slow down, let go, and
simply be in the Presence in the moment. my heart rate automatically reduces
ever so slightly whenever i hear or read these words.
and then i try
to 'be still'. even for a few brief moments. and as i withdraw from my daily
activities -whether in the morning, afternoon, or evening - and the cacophony
around me fades away into quiet, i find in that exterior silence a whole new
cacophony emerging from deep within me.
voices that distract
me with meaningless trivia and information, mindless entertainment and endless
repetition of songs and jingles that, more often than not, i just can't stand. voices
that remind me of how often i forget things that need to get done, people that
need to be seen and engaged, friendships near and far that need to be nurtured.
voices that call me to think more, feel more, care more, do more, BE more.
and all the while, a
most familiar voice from deep within whispers to me that, when all is said and
done, i really don't amount to much as a human being in this world.
'be still'? it's
hard for me to do that and 'be sane' in the process.
when the noise outside
of me gives way to the noise inside of me, i turn to those older and wiser than
me to help make some sense of it all. i read insights from 'spiritual masters'
who i admire and trust. and they speak to me with one unequivocal voice. when
it comes to trying to 'be still' and listen to the Silence and let it do
its life-giving work within me, and the inevitable distractions come, they give
me the following advice:
'let them be'.
don't try and battle
them into submission because, in the end, you'll be as successful as trying to
nail jello to a wall. don't follow them down the endless rabbit trails on which
they want to lead you, because then you'll miss the whole point of spending
time with the Silence - reconnecting with the Ground of all being, the Love
that gives you life, the Truth that sets you free.
let them be...because
what you are ultimately looking for and longing for, what you most need and
desire, is not many, but One.
let them be...because
while your eyes dart in all directions and your ears hear a multiplicity of
sounds, your heart races and skips and flutters anxiously as your life flies
past you in a seemingly meaningless blur, there is One set of eyes always fixed
on you, One voice that sings a song only for you, One heart beating a rhythm of
life for you, One life given in love for you.
'be still...and know
that I am God.'
i come out of moments
where i do truly slow down enough to experience that Presence and remember
Whose i am and who i am. and then i have to somehow re-enter the rat race, the
tyranny of the urgent, the dynasty of the dysfunctional, within myself and all
around me.
'be still'? or 'be
in-sane'?
in the midst of this
struggle, i came across another reading of the passage mentioned above, another
version of the same Hebrew text that, while essentially the same, has a subtle
difference to it that makes quite a difference in how one hears it...
'let be then...and
know that I am God' (ps 46.10, new english bible).
i love the mystery and
complexity of Hebrew because tiny phrases can have so many layers of
possibilities and dimensions of meaning. just like the hieroglyphics of our
lives.
'be still' sounds like
a call to silence in the presence of the One who speaks in a still, small
voice.
'let be then' sounds
both like the wisdom to allow the distractions that inevitably pop up in the
midst of the silence to simply be, AND the invitation to continue walking
through the challenges and the joys in the cacophony of everyday life in much
the same way.
to 'be still' in the
sacred silence, and to 'let be then' in the chaotic clamour that arises within
and without.
to be still.
and to still be.
i guess Lent reminds
me that i need to practice the one in order to more fully live out the other.
thank you...perfect for this day...
ReplyDeletethanks, kathy...peace to you and yours. :) b.
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